The users really are abusers A time for awakening What level of vanity are you Take me or leave me Bondage

  15. Chose your fear wisely because it could cost you more in the long run 14. Correct yourself before someone else does. I was wrong. Repeat after me I was wrong. 13. A lot of people are miserable 12. Seeing the good in people can be overrated 11. People are full of shit Call … Continue reading 2019

Behindtheopendoor comes to you once again at the end of the year to share with you 15 lessons and realisations and an overview of the past year.  15. Understand how you want to present yourselfHow do you want to be seen by others? What are your morals and what do you stand for?. What comes … Continue reading 2018

I now know you sacrificed a lot when you gave birth to me. I can't even imagine how emotionally drained you were at that point; just before we were about to meet for the first time.  I'm sorry it took me so long to realise. 27 years to be precise. It's funny mama because I … Continue reading Dear Mama

I'm mourning you but your alive.  Alive, living and breathing but you haunt me like a dark shadow. No condolences have come my way so why does it feel like your dead? I have some highly anticipated questions I would you to answer: Why did you leave? Were you hurting? Do you have regrets? Was … Continue reading Mourning Alive

Behindtheopendoor would like to thank you for your continuous support. We would like to share some key lessons learnt in 2017, which deserve to be highlighted. 10 things that stood out in 2017 10 – The power of financial management Throughout life you hear people press on how important it is to save for a … Continue reading 2017

You failed me; you failed to protect what was yours. I am yours and you failed to protect me. No red flags were enough for you to notice just how distraught I was. I protected someone you brought into our world and I did this out of fear. Fear that there would be another episode of anger, … Continue reading Protector Of The Unknown

Dear 10 years of fear,  I am leaving you behind because this is the only thing you deserve. You’ve been very lonely, You’ve caused me pain, You’ve caused me financial strain, You’ve birthed insecurities, You’ve caused me emotional strain, You’ve been exhausting, You’ve been traumatising, You’ve been misleading, You’ve awakened bodily issues, You’ve caused me … Continue reading 10 Years Of Fear

I’m sorry I’m not sorry. I’ve never really been in situations where I’ve had to say I’m sorry. I tend to avoid getting into situations that require me to be sorry. Maybe me being over analytical and considerate is the blessing which helps me avoid the generic persons conflict which usually ends in an apology. … Continue reading Sorry Not Sorry

I'm not one to blame but it's clear your the problem. All your offspring’s have a mutual understanding of who you are. Actually who are you? You come and go unannounced digging a black hole which you leave empty on each visit with no empathy. You often revisit this hole throwing things in such as … Continue reading Daddy Your The Issue